Something needs to happen

I know I can’t be the only one who thinks this day and age needs something more—anything more. When I walk around campus, go to class, go to parties, go to the gym, read the newspaper, watch tv, listen to the radio, go to the library, watch a movie, explore the city, anything and everything, it just feels empty. I know it shouldn’t though; usually at least my classes will get me going intellectually, but for some reason it’s not quite working out this time around. I’m not sure if maybe I’m just going through a phase of apathy, but when I speak to others about this they seem to agree. So what’s the problem? Us? I can’t decide if it’s just a lack of good organization within our culture or maybe I’m the one who’s out of the loop, but when I look around I find myself wondering, who are the inspirational leaders of our generation? If I want to be inspired I have to look back a few decades to the counter-cultures of those days, but where are the leaders of today? Usually I can look to music for at least something worthwhile, but I’ve been drawing a blank there as well. I mean, did anyone catch the VMA’s this year? Those are supposed to be the top artists and groundbreakers of the year—I wanted to blow my brains out.

It just seems to me that either something truly great is going happen soon that’s just going to blow us all away, or slowly but surely everyone will seem to fall off the face of the earth, starting with me. I mean people can only engage in meaningless activities for so long before they start to become delusional or neurotic, which at least for myself I can’t say I’m not already.